Becoming (Part Seven)

Coming clean with myself has been one of the most empowering things I've ever done. Allowing myself to heal and cleansing myself off all the junk that has been holding me back. Consistent mediation, prayer, and scripture study has been my staple. I'm becoming a better woman. I'm spiritually empowered, emotionally stable,  and mentally healthy. I can feel warmth. I can see the goodness of God in the details of my life. It's a process and it's working. I'm becoming my best self. I'm becoming in touch with my higher self. I'm filling myself with good things and that has helped me stay focused. In order to fulfill God's will, I needed to cleanse my inner vessel. It's worth it. God's love and goodness flows through me more and more.

I'm becoming and it's beautiful. I am beautiful.

 [PC: Sadie Banks Photography]

Read last entry in this series: http://itsnottheworst.blogspot.com/2016/08/becoming-part-six.html

Divinity Within

I've been thinking a lot about being a woman means to me. I don't think I really took the time to realize just how beautiful it is to be a woman until this year. As I've been trying to do the Lord's will and prepare myself for His work, I've really had to come to know myself. I've been tearing down walls that I've built up over the years. I'm starting to see with more clarity who I am. I've really been diving deeper and deeper to see the divinity within me.

I am a daughter of God. 

I am a Queen.

I'm much more than just a woman. God has shown me and continues to show me how much more I am. We are much more than just being a mom, daughter, or grandmother. We are much more than being a feminist or a public figure. We're purely divine, because we are God's royal daughters. We have a Heavenly Mother who is ours! She paved the way of womanhood! She is the pure example of why being a woman is a beautiful thing. You don't hear much about her, because she's that wonderful. We have her divine qualities and they are desperately needed in this dark world!

Being a woman is such a privilege. We are gentle by nature. We have the power to show the world just how powerful we can be without degrading ourselves. We can be uplifting and firm, but with genuine kindness. We can show our beauty without explicitly exposing ourselves. We can raise strong children, even if we might have throw up on our shirts and peanut butter in our hair. We can do hard things, but with a gentle touch.

We women are Queens! Do we truly see how divine we are? The other day I looked in the mirror at my body. White hairs, a fresh new pimple, dark shadows under my eyes, and gosh, the extra fat literally everywhere on my body! You wouldn't want to hear the harsh lecture I had for myself. I became more and more frustrated for not taking care of myself. Then I leaned in and looked myself in mirror. I looked in my dark brown eyes as affirmations came to my mind.

I am a Queen!

I am a daughter of the Most Divine!

I am a beautiful woman!

I am a shining light!

A smile appeared on my face and I began to repair the negative thoughts with fresh love. I am grateful to be a woman. I am grateful for the ability to share my genuine kindness and love with those around me. In today's world, we need more women who love and are gentle! We need women who can raise up a righteous generation to stand against the evils of the world. We need women who can be a shining light to a dark world! We need women who can fight for good, but with much more grace. In a world full of men, we need women who can balance them out! (For real, tho!) All of us are beautiful REGARDLESS of what we have been through. We are beautiful, because we are Queens! We are daughters of a Heavenly Father and Mother. 

We all can and should enjoy the beauty that is womanhood! It truly is wonderful being a woman. So for you who love and cherish being a woman, keep going! Keep spreading that joy with your sisters! We're all in this together- it's not a competition! For you who may struggle to see or appreciate the woman inside you, have faith and let God show you just how beautiful you are! There will come a time when you will start to see the Queen inside you. You'll start to change and become a woman of such refinement! You'll become a  divinely stronger woman and you'll move mountains! We're in this together. I believe that if we could truly see who we really are, we would naturally act accordingly.

Becoming (Part Two)

***This is part two of my original post.***

I'm becoming something...or rather I'm becoming someONE. The more I carve out my character, the more I am learning more about who I want to become. I realized something the other day: the more I go to the Temple, the more I can pin point my flaws. I can easily see the areas that might need a bit more work. Sometimes it's overwhelming, other times it's humbling. The beauty about the Temple is that even though I recognize these flaws, I am quickly reminded about who God wants me to be. I was born to become a Queen. Me. A Queen? No way!

YES WAY!

Now what does the world want me to become? I don't know. I feel like the world says a lot of different things that confuses me. I'm supposed to be conservative and liberal, rich, successful, educated, blah blah blah blah blah blah.

God wants me to be a Queen. A QUEEN! And all I have to do is follow Him and Jesus Christ. Everything has been set before me. I have unlimited access to Heavenly Father through prayer. I have scriptures to guide me when I get confused. I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ that teaches me eternal principles. This Gospel literally teaches me how to become the Queen I am destined to be. 

It's easy to become confused in a world that is telling me to become several different things. It makes it hard to know who or what to turn to. But in the Gospel, I am reminded to turn to my creator. It makes sense though, right? To turn to your maker, because He knows you the best. By golly, he created you! He knows. He knows! 

I'm becoming a Queen. The more cracks and crevices and flaws I find in myself, I am trying to use the atonement to fill them. The atonement reminds me that I'm not alone on my journey in becoming a Queen. The atonement is beautiful in the most personal ways. It's necessary in order  to become a Queen.

Perfection takes time. Change takes time. Becoming who God wants me to be takes time. I'm becoming and it's a beautiful process.