Marlisa, what do you want to do?

A question that so many have asked me and one that I ask myself. Don't even get me started. There are a lot of things that I want to do. But. (Because there's always a but.) I am scared. I'm scared of failure. I'm scared of rejection. I'm scared of putting myself out there. I'm scared of being vulnerable. I'm just scared.

Good. Let that feeling of fear humble you. Then go. to. work! Believe, believe, believe! Your faith, regardless of how big or small, can change your life. But you have to work through your fears. You have to work! You have to push yourself and believe in yourself. You can do hard things.

It's not the worst.

Today

...was not by best day. Tired eyes. Tired brain. I hate the feeling of being tired. I'm literally running on 10 hours of sleep since Sunday. I've noticed how frustrated and disappointed I am when I come home from work recently. I feel stupid and insecure. But today. Today was the day. I just wasn't understanding as quickly as I usually do. I was on the verge of tears all day. I left work and came home to a good ugly cry. Tomorrow's another day to try again. But tonight, I will cry myself to sleep.

It's not the worst. All good things. This is life.

I sicken myself!

You know that feeling when you are given the opportunity to serve someone and you don't do it? Yeah, that was me ten minutes ago. And I am so mad at myself for it. Even after listening to two conference talks about serving others, I still managed to let God and myself down. I don't like this feeling. Yuck. Don't follow my example, but learn from my example.